I am a person with big dreams and great plans. I always want my plans to work-out the way I want it to happen. And whenever the results of my work did not meet my expectations, I easily get disappointed. It was my belief before that you make your own destiny. Until I encountered God.
To be active in the discipleship process was never in my plan. I had the desire, but I just knew I couldn’t do it. I am an introvert and happy to be alone. I couldn’t see myself approaching people to share the Word of God. I was contented with my relationship with God, and for me it was enough.
But as I got closer to Him, God impressed to me to share His word. At first I got confused and was not sure about it. I asked Him, “Why me, Lord? Everyone is telling me I can do it, that I am strong and friendly. But you know I can’t. Can I just serve You in other ways instead?” But He said to me in His word in Isaiah 51:15-16, “I am the LORD your God, who stirs up the sea so that its waves roar- the LORD of hosts is his name. And I have put my words in your mouth and covered you in the shadow of my hand, establishing the heavens and laying the foundations of the earth, and saying to Zion, ‘You are my people.'”
Then it occurred to me, it is never about me nor about my capabilities but it’s always about Him and what He can do. All I need is just to trust Him. I also remembered this line I saw in the internet, “God does not call the equipped, He equips the called.”
So I”ve obeyed God and take part in in discipleship. I served at my campus (University of the Philippines) during my senior year and until now. I become part of the engaging team in Victory church iloilo.
It is really an amazing feeling when you see people get closer to God and you’ve been part of it. And when you witness transformations of lives and hear testimonies . Yes, it isn’t easy to make disciples. It takes sacrifices and effort. But when you know the reason why you are doing it, your effort becomes a fulfillment — that is fulfilling God’s purpose for you.
Before I thought I couldnt do it. It is God’s grace who sustains me that I am able to make it. I have learned to let go of my own plans and let God decide for me. The only weapon I have right now is God and the eagerness to share Him.
I want the world to know how Great He is. And serve Him through serving His people. Every time I move and act, I just take hold on this verse, “Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand.” (Proverbs 19:21). At the end of the day, God’s plans will be established. And right now, I just know that God wants me to take heart and take part in discipleship.
Riena Vega is one of Victory Iloilo’s young professional leaders who volunteers to lead Life Groups in campus.